Weleh weleh…It was tough really tough heh but again Ivonne never good at keeping lies so the words came out or actually he knew it already since the first time we were together. He is extremely nice, caring, loving, smart, and lot more…He got everything on my list and I thought as the time flows I can fall in love with this sweet guy. In fact I can’t…For this almost 3 weeks all I can say was "Aku sayang kamu". It takes my life to be able to spell that magic words. I am thinking that we might moved too fast oder? I was freak out by such a extremely huge love and care being poured over me…I say my friend challenged me but I tried to give myself an opportunity to start a new story but it turns out hurting people because I am so not ready…So until when I keep running away? Until when I keep waiting for "the who" who has all my heart in his palm? Can’t I just move on and fall in love again and oh…the beauty of loving? You know what "the who", I hate waiting but everytime I thought I finally free from you, you knock on my door again again and again. "The one" who has been with me for almost 3 weeks, I would like to say thank you for everything. I kinda regret that we should break up though. You know all my past yet you still love me this much oh.."the one" I wish I could love you too. Who will love me as much as you do now…I bet none. Mostly who know how I was will look at me as I am a very dirty junk. Oh God, if "the one" is a guy You sent for me then I am so sorry for letting him go. And…at the end Ivonne will all by herself again restructuring her life and she decided to wait for "the who" unless she will hurt people again. She will make sure "the who" is really not for her and she will really move on by that time. Pada saat orang bilang gw bodoh dan seperti anak kecil, gw selalu melihat bahwa gw belajar sesuatu lagi. Tapi mungkin tetep aja bodoh bahwa gw harus sakit dulu untuk belajar sesuatu =)
