Journal of V

I just got a message hehehe…saying "I’m not the right person for you to be with". A li’l bit surprise what makes you say this statement. I was confused, you say it’s because you just read my blogs and I wonder did I ever write something about you hmm…After finishing my last writing I decided to reminisce a bit from the beginning of my writings. I read and read and read the ups dan downs in my life…I suddenly laughed out loud I just realized why you say the statement hahaha…It’s all because of my a li’l bit dramatized words hehehe…Oh here I go again I should explain that there is nothing to do with him in my blogs…But why should you think so by the way? Yeah you might forgot but I ever confessed that I like you and that’s it. I don’t want to put too much hope to myself. I am trying to enjoy every moments in my life and the moments included you in it. Don’t worry I don’t think that you are the right person too at least for now but you are nice, lovely, and somehow confusing (with the most portion for confusing part hehe..). Umm…the right person for me is someone who is not going to break this heart into pieces like everyone did. Udah ah harus bikinin blog buat si adek sayang =)

August 15th I lost something precious again. Um..or maybe not too precious? Ga jelas dengan how I exactly feel. Kacau? Iya. Lega? Iya juga. Keinginan untuk balik lagi? Antara mau dan tidak. Muter otak juga what kind of effort yang harus gw lakukan lagi to save my relationship next time. Somehow this idea is getting stronger that I think I am the only one who has the strong willing to share an unconditional love in whatever the condition is. I held a belief that nothing can stop the love when it is in its action =) I don’t mind sharing my love to so many people but somehow I feel so damn exhausted having these adventures. I would be very thankful if I can find the last stop now…last port, last shuttle, anything you name it but please let it be the last for me. Please no more games being played, no more to be fooled…What is your intention anyway to play and fool me?