Do I deserve a second chance?
Butterflies of Hopes
- This morning I woke up and felt that I really want to write something about my thought recently. Then I searched a song that may pop an idea for me =) I remember this song (”Like You’ll Never See Me Again” by Alicia Keys) and I started to search via youtube (sounds like someone?). I can never be by myself. I always need someone to take care of me. I miss the moment where there is a person I can share almost everything. I miss the moment where I was so proud of someone for whatever the reasons are. I do miss these moments but I never want to go back to where I was or how I was. I accept my faith and I am happy with my present. Until I met a person who have been my family’s favorite. They say he is nice and I try to make myself to like him. I make it, I like him with all his uniqueness and he is the only person that I want. I want to say “I miss you” when we talk to each other but I can’t because I don’t want to scare you away. I wanted to touch your face and give a light kiss on your forehead when we meet but again I can’t.All I can do is to brighten your day with my smile. It’s getting harder when I knew there is a condition that he might not want to accept and it happens to me. I don’t know, should I lie, should I be quiet and wait ‘til you find out yourself? Or should I tell you and be ready to lose you (again?). I feel the passion of love and a will to give the best love. I wonder if you want to accept or give me a chance to love you with an imperfect condition of me. There is another way err…I’ll tell you the truth and I’ll be giving up on you at the same time because I don’t want you or anyone else break me up for what I am. If I could turn back time and If only I had known that I would meet you I would have been do anything to be able to give you myself completely.
